Monday, January 12, 2009

stephen chbosky

I've been on a reading kick for the past few weeks, and it's always easy to dive into a book when I have nothing else to do and I'm constantly in the car for a long period of time, but I promised myself I would continue to read once I got to New York. I've been carrying around my book in the subway and I read a few pages here and there and try to read before I go to sleep. On the way home from work today I wasn't in the best of moods, but something caught my attention and it was a little part of the book that I'm reading now. The perks of being a wallflower by Stephen Chbosky - it's the story of what it's like to grow up in high school and it's written like a diary. The part that made me think was this...

"December 23, 1991

Dear friend,
Sam and Patrick left with their family for the Grand Canyon yesterday. I don't feel too bad about it because I can still remember Sam's kiss. It feels peaceful and right. I even considered not washing my lips like they do on TV, but then I thought it would get too gross. So, instead I spent today walking around the neighborhood. I even got out my old sled and my old scarf. There is something cozy about that for me. 
I walked over to the hill where we used to go and sled. There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't. "
I read this a few times and realized this has a little to do with my previous posts about relaxing and having fun all that kind of stuff. But this little passage right here couldn't of said it any better. One day all of us will grow up and sledding won't be an option. Thankfully I'm still at a point in my life where stuff like that is enough. But we don't think like that anymore, we always want more, and want to do something bigger and better. The funny thing is, something as simple as sledding is enough. Why we try and make things so much more knotty, I'll never understand. Some days I think what can I do to have so much fun? Or what should I do today or where should I go? But the truth is, that passion, that fun, that sledding feeling can be found anywhere. But to each is own. I sat in my chair today and listened to Muse and read my book and no that didn't bring me the exhilarating feeling of flying down a hill on a sled, but it made me feel serene - and with that, I was able to relax and enjoy the moment. 

So my advice to you is to find your moment where sledding is enough. Whatever it may be, find it. Indulge in it. Relax. Breathe. 

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