Monday, December 29, 2008

The Power of our Youth

I realized today while sitting on the couch at my grandparents house just how powerful our youth can be. As I watched Noah (my cousin) crawl around the floor, ga ga'ing, and drooling, with eyes from my entire family glued on him for hours - I noticed the amount of joy that a child can bring to not only his/her parents...but an entire family, an entire group of people. I wasn't in the greatest moods today - I've been struggling with a few things that are on my mind, but at that moment I looked at Noah and saw his blissful smile and the light of youth shining over him – a smile was locked tight on my face. The fact that he has no idea where he is, what kind of world it is today, no job, no financial problems, no worries...made me wish I could feel what he was feeling again. Why can't we get away and feel what Noah feels, why can't we be care-free, laugh, drool, yell as loud as we want, and have no worries...Why can't we do that? 

I thought for a moment and we can...We simply can do whatever we please. We've been given this glorious opportunity to create a path in our life, and down this path we hope to achieve our goals, and to live our life the best possible way we know how to. But along the way - I think we need to be like Noah more - and if we do this, I feel like we can pass along the sublime confidence of our youth to others.

So let go, put away your troubles and worries, and sing as loud as you can(even if you don't know the words - right jos?) dance to music, dance without music, give someone a compliment, let someone cross the street in front of you, tip a little bit more - when you can :) , go for a run, stay up late, sleep in if you want, take a sick day - do something that makes you smile, that makes you feel young....just let go. 

Maybe we'll find out that just this one notion, just this one thing can help us enjoy our days more and provide someone else with the passion to do the same.

So thanks Noah :) thanks for reminding me what it's like to be young again. 

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Christmas is here.

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse;
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
In hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be there;
Another year on the shelves, another Christmas is here. The family time during the holidays is what I look forward to the most and this year has been nothing short of what I wanted. As we all flock in to my grandparents for the scrumptious food and presents, that Christmas feeling filled the ever so hot living room. I am so thankful for being a part of such a wonderful tradition and hope there will be many more to come.

Heres to you Josi.

Cheers to longevity.....poppp...gulp, gulp, gulp. 

The day after Christmas is always the worst, so I look forward to making the most of tomorrow. 

Merry Christmas to all and to all a Goodnight. 

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Seven Pounds

Here is the trailer...

First off, I am not a movie critic nor am I an expert at providing people with great reviews and to be honest, I've never actually critiqued a movie in a written form. So here goes. 

Seven Pounds, starring Will Smith...Before I go further I'll throw down my thoughts on him. I think he is one of the best actors for many different reasons. One of them is that he is simply not Will Smith when he acts, he conforms into whatever role he is playing and there are no similarities in his whole demeanor from movie to movie. From Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, Men in Black, Hancock, The Pursuit of Happyness, and now Seven Pounds...His way of hypnotizing you is mind-blowing. He lures you in and you feel his pain, his happiness, his tears. 

The movie drags along and is very slow - but not one second  goes by where you aren't fully attentive. It is by no means boring or non-informative. It just doesn't harmonize in the beginning. As the movie plays on you slowly understand what is happening. The movie keeps cutting to flashbacks that he has of his marriage and how glorious it was. But finally you actually see what happens, he was driving on a curvy road and texting (which I do all the time - and won't be doing anymore) and a car was coming head-on, when he tried to swerve he lost control and flipped his car several times. The car that was coming at him also lost control and went flying into the air. The aftermath was seven fatal deaths but he managed to survive. 

He is miserable for the most part of the movie until he decides he is going to save seven lives to make up for what he did. Once the pieces of the puzzle start coming together - the plot seems brilliant. He researches people and finds out information about them and determines how he can help them. Wether it be an old lady in the hospital that is dying and just needs a bath, or a kid that needs bone marrow, or a gorgeous woman who needs a heart transplant. 

I don't want to give the entire movie away, but he goes around saving seven lives - but by doing this he feels he is making up for the fatal car crash that he caused. The woman that he falls for is absolutely gorgeous - no make up, no retouching, nothing...all natural. 

The ending is one of the most gut-wrenching parts in a movie I've ever had to endure. I read a lot of reviews and many critics bash this movie, but all I can say is go see it for yourself. I thoroughly enjoyed it and was teary-eyed for the last part of the movie. It really hits you deep. 

*Applause for Will Smith* - again.

My first movie review, not bad I suppose...Go see it for yourself.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

follow the effin gps.

We got back really late from New York, but the entire time home I was reading...While I was reading I just kept thinking about all the things I would be doing while I'm living in New York, I'm not even sure if I remember what I was reading...

Anyway, it was our first family trip that all five of us went on in god knows how long. Not only was it enjoyable, but it was just a typical family trip. I don't know about other families, but all five of us do not exactly have the same personality. My dad for one is very very calm, and can withstand anything as long as he has a beer. My mom on the other hand just wants everyone to be happy, she doesn't care what we are doing as long as her children are enjoying it. My two sisters are a little different, Cheyenne likes to do her thing, shes not gonna sit around and wait for something, she has her own agenda, and she skips to her own beat. Josi has a hidden agenda, but will usually just do what everyone else wants to do while sneaking in her secret objectives. Me on the other hand, I for the most part could care less what we do as long as I'm having a good time, some days I'll be in a great mood, and some days I won't...I have a temper, and I'm quite the sarcastic person. But....and I say but because I truly believe as long as I've had my sleep and maybe a cup of coffee, I can handle anything and I'll enjoy myself as I go no matter what we do. So - after all these personality traits clash, you have simply a big bang of different styles which usually results in a few arguments, a few attitudes, and some hateful facial expressions...but with all that being said, I had a great time, and I wouldn't of changed a thing. We simply tackled New York City in approximately 24 hours. 

On the way there and on the way back we had a knock-out fight between human directions and simply following the gps. My theory is, these gps devices may be wrong sometimes but the majority of the time if you type in an address, it will get you there, regardless of what roads it so happens to take. We didn't necessarily abide by these theories that I believe in. Instead, we decided to yell and scream about which turn we should take and what lane to be in for half of the trip. At one point I finally lost it and blurted out "follow the effin gps." But you can only imagine for yourself what I really said. Anywho, I researched a few things to do and saw a timeline online of how to conquer new york city in 48 hours, except one small problem, we only had about 24 hours. So we cut out a few things and basically made our own timeline. We hit almost every major store in New York...very briefly for some and we stayed longer for others...We took a carriage ride around central park, and ate at a family style restaurant, indulged into new york pizza a few times, and shopped our faces off at every possible department store there was. My dad and I actually caught a few z's right outside of macy's during one of the most populated times of the day. We were exhausted from all the walking from street to street, and from avenue to avenue. I certainly didn't want to go into Macy's, it had 9 floors, how do you even begin to shop in something that massive?

Overall it was a great little family vacay, and I'm so glad we got the chance to spend some time together. It's been a while. New York is definitely overwhelming but in the same tone, it is quite the charmer. I fell in love the first  10 minutes I was there. It has anything and everything you could imagine. My views on just being there for day - I definitely foresee that I will have an awesome time being there but I just can't see myself living there for a long period of time after. I am to in love with the style fredericksburg has layed upon me, and what I am used to in Clemson. I love the city atmosphere, all the people, the high-class food, the top of the line stores. But what NYC doesn't have to offer is the little main street deli that I eat at in Central, South Carolina, where on any given day I might not see a single person but as long as I'm with my roommates and I get my tomato basil bisque I'm happy. Or the effect of driving down River Road to see my grandparents, and knowing that it will take me 7 minutes to get there from my house wether it be at 10 in the morning on a Monday, or rush hour on a friday afternoon. Somehow I'll need to find something that strikes a nerve with all these feelings I have, and find my happy place one day, who knows where it will be..but it has to be out there...somewhere.

I'm off to finishing my book, or atleast I hope so...

FOLLOW the me.

goodnight to all. 

Sunday, December 14, 2008 to the city

To the city we go. I'm not sure if I'm ready for all this, but I'm anxiously awaiting the overwhelming feeling that will smack me when I step foot into the city. The lights, the noise, the people...they don't know I'm coming, they don't care. But soon, those lights, that noise, and those people will be a part of me and it will be something I can hold with me forever. 

I'm bringing the camera, so I'm sure I'll have plenty of images to share.

Peace and love. 

Saturday, December 13, 2008


I am finally home, the last time I was in Fredericksburg was in May. The trip home wasn't bad at all, there is something about driving 500 miles and being on the road for seven hours - knowing the entire time your coming home to your family, your friends, and it's christmas time. But at the same time I was leaving friends, a house that I lived in for 3 years, and the town of Clemson which I won't see for a while. It was bittersweet. As I sit here and write, it amazes me that I am almost finished with college. The beauty of it is that I'm stepping into the real world for a semester, and then I get to come back to college for two more semesters. 

The progressive Christmas party was tonight, always a pleasure to come back to each year. A few streets in our neighborhood join together and host a progressive party, going from house to house, hence the name. Each house has a time slot and everyone comes to enjoy drinks and food, and usually by the third house, the volume starts to rise, the more alcohol people are tipping back, and the more boring jokes that are told but somehow they are seemingly funny at the time. Regardless, nothing beats a good ol' progressive christmas party with the old folks.  

Tomorrow my family and I are heading to Dulles to pick Chey up from the airport and then were off to New York city for two days. I get to see where I'm gonna be living, and we'll walk the streets of the city that never sleeps. I've actually never been to "the city." So I'm sure i'll be overwhelmed. I can't wait to have a piece of pizza or "pie." 

Monday, December 8, 2008

better days

I thought about posting tonight, but then Virginia told me to look at these lyrics, and I can't say enough about them... I'm actually not gonna say anything at all, just read them for yourself. Unbelievable.

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

-The Goo Goo Dolls/ Better Days

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Failure leads to success.

I've been isolated in Godfrey Hall for the past two days. I wake up, I take a shower, and I go to Godfrey. There are numerous projects that are due at the beginning of next week, and somehow I decided that I would start all of them this week. Not the best idea, but always a way to make me really work hard. As I sat in the lab today, I messed up my screen that I was using to print on my glasses. First I realized it, then I started getting hot, then I got stressed, then came the removal of my sweat shirt, and I was soooo mad. I tried to bring myself down but it just wasn't happening today.  So as I sat there remaking my screen, I thought to myself how something like that got me so upset, and made me hot, and the constant thought of failure kept running through my head. But then I laughed, why bestow my fear of failing in my thoughts and consider it a failure? So my facial expression slowly turned into a grin followed by a smile. Because right then I realized it wasn't failure, it was an experience, a learning one at that. I could go make a screen for the next 10 years and not forget how to do it. It's because I messed up, that it will stick in my head for who knows how long. 

So as we live our life, these mistakes that we make are not failures, they are simply learning experiences. Which by failing, you learn, and then become successful at that given moment - and these moments happen everyday, and instead of etching failure into your mind, know that it is a process...

To come back down from all the theoretical talk, I actually enjoyed today because I got a lot accomplished, and it took some weight off my shoulders. It was a long day regardless. Tomorrow is going to come way to fast, but hopefully my toasted almond coffee and I will conquer all challenges awaiting me. 

Monday, December 1, 2008

back to reality

My eight day vacation is over. I got a chance to see the packers play for the first time, I went to the Egg bowl, and got to spend thanksgiving with my girlfriends family. Tomorrow it's back to reality, I have a lot of stuff due this week and next. 

I started reading Twilight, and so far it's not bad at all. I thoroughly enjoy it. It is not a hard read by any means, but it definitely flirts with a little girlyness - which isn't exactly my cup of tea but Stephenie Meyer is a good author, and I'll post my comments as I finish reading it. 

OAR has a new cd out, and in my opinion it's utterly impressive. I loveedd 34th and 8th, but this cd is nothing like any of their old stuff. I also got a few other cd's that I haven't listened to yet, I'll pass my thoughts along as I sift through the tracks. 

I played soccer tonight for the first time since the Boston College game, and it felt nice...No coaches, no pressure, no worries. I had a lot of fun, and it was a well needed workout. 

Ahhh, it's 3:40 in the morning, my eyes are closing...I can't not stay up late, I don't know why...but thats another story and I'm rambling/writing down little stories because I can't think straight. I'm gonna listen to my eyes, and call it a night.

~drift away